Lust or Love...its already started..cant it be both for now??? | sykesme2's Blog

i want to say thank you to everyone for your interest in my new BO..yes.. he is my new BO..omg..that sounds so good...its nice to know that although i havnt met any of you from here or yahoo, that you take interest in me and my life...its nice to have friends like this...it is...means alot to me......so ....friday.. jerry calls me up from work and wanted to know since its a nice day out if i would want to go to dinner and then maybe to the mini golf .i said sure....he asked me what my fav rest was...i just said..you pick..he asked if i liked steak..i said yes..how about the longhorn rest...umm..this is like my fav rest..cool.( already a good start) ..so..i will pick you up at 7??..i said sure...when i hang up.. i call bree and crystal and do a 3way call..also had a shot cause i was so nervious..so now they talk me out of my mini cause we are going to the mini golf..so..back to the mall we went..they get me this white tank shirt and golf like shorts..and made me promise no sex...no sex talk...nothing to do with sex...so i promised them....and it worked cause i had a great time...when he came over..he didnt beep..he actually rang the doorbell..he was in black pants and a blue and white shirt...i asked him if he wanted to come in..he looked at me...are you hungry?? i said yes..lets go..ive been inside .and he smiled....we had a nice dinner...talked alot...he even pulled the seat out for me and pushed it in when we sat down...and pulled it out when we were done...wow.....found out he is divorced since november...was married for almost 5 years,,i guess she was a gold digger..just wanted to shop and go out with her friends..she is a paralegel ..so they both made a good living..no kids..( sounded like a bitch to me...but i didnt pass any judgements) .anyway...we went to play golf..and had alot of laughs...he has a great sence of humor..very open with his comments ...like me...and he loves to like people watch and make comments...i love that stuff.....and i think he even let me beat him at mini golf.....he took me home and i asked him if he wanted to come in..he said he had a great time but had to get up eary to load his truck up,,even though he dont deliver on saturday..he goes in to load his truck up for monday...sunday is like his real day off....and he ask me if i was doing anything tomorrow night...i said nope....he asked if i would like to go to elm street in manchster and go to the outside cafe;s and just walk around by the river...wow wow...i said of course...and we did and we had a great time..talked alot..he was like..you know alot about me..now its your turn...told him i was a cheerleader and now a trade show model..that i had some bad and different relationships...he took me by a picnic like area by the river and we sat down..and he asked me if i would like to try to have another relationship...maybe with him...i didnt say anything at first...he said he was sorry for asking and maybe its to soon...i said no...its not that...you know nothing about me...he said...so tell me...not here..he ask if i was an ex con or dated someone like that that could be trouble..i was like..noo noo..nothing like that...how about this...you come over tomorrow and ill make you a sunday dinner...i make a mean chicken cultlet parm over lugini..and i will tell you everything you want to know...he was like..wow..beutiful women..fun to be around and you can cook too....ok...what time...i said 4..he took me home later on...again a perfect gentalmen...walked me to my door..kissed me goodnight and left....i decidid then to keep things to myslef and just tell him everything tomorrow...now sunday became a great beach day..so...i went..alone..got my thoughts together...came back...chatted in yahoo for a bit..then got to cooking...he came with a bottle of white wine and flowers...( i know..awwww) he loved what i made and we had almost all the wine...then he was like...ok..mystery girl...tell me all about you.....i actually got out the bottle of whiskey,,,got 2 glasses of ice and poured them half way up.....took a sip..ok ok..big sip.....ok here it goes....he looked scared...i said...dont worry i didnt kill anyone or anything...your safe...that kinda broke the tention...then i started to tell him about my life..never having a dad ...mom always working..i was alone alot and started to have sex at age 12..and i told him just about everything without stopping so he couldnt talk... cause i just wanted to get it all out...he just stared and took a few sips of his drink....when i stopped...he just looked at me...so this is all in your past??..i said ..most of it...some of it recently.....he ask me if i thought i could stop it all...i just said...to be honest..i want to..im just not sure how...he said...and ive had awful sex since i got married...what you saying is like so hot...im not sure how i would react..however...im not sure i wouldnt want to stop seeing you...and to be honest..ive had thoughts about that all the time..being with 2 women or me and a froend with one girl!!...im divorced..not dead...and ..i would of never belived it if you didnt tell me..that you are like that...never in a million years would i have guessed it...i got up and sat on his lap and kissed him...i would love to try a relationship with you.....and i paused..nd i smiled...would you like to go to my room and start it????....umm...out of room...i will have to blog the sex part ...hopfully tomorrow....omg...sorry......omg...